Reflections...

Before knowing the background knowledge of C.S Lewis I just believed that he was grieving the loss of a wife that he had been with for many many years, but they weren't. When Professor Corrigan told the class that Joy (his wife) had been dying of cancer that instantly grabbed my attention. If that's not love then I don't know what is. I do not know many people that would date someone who had cancer. I understand that sounds really bad, but it's the truth. While dating someone with an illness there is always something that is going to worry you about; not knowing whether or not a spouse mat or may not wake up smiling the next morning is not a very pleasant feeling. I'm not even quite sure if I would be comfortable dating someone with an illness. I guess it just depends on how much you love that person. I know for a fact that C.S Lewis loved Joy with his whole heart because even when she was sick and they knew she would pass away very soon he still wanted to marry the love of his life.
Just reflecting on how sincere their love was made me realize that I want a love like that someday. This whole novel is about Lewis grieving about the loss of his wife, and the mere fact that this novel is actually a journal shows how passionate he felt towards Joy. In the beginning of the novel Lewis is questioning God's existence. The fact that Lewis would question God shocked me because he is a Christian, but I failed to realize that everyone is human. Of course everyone is going to ask God  "Why?" "Why me?" Why did this have to happen?" So, I completely understand where Lewis is coming from. When I found out that I was somewhat adopted because my mom died I was a little upset at God because I wanted to know why he wouldn't even let me get a chance to meet her, but I learned that God will not put me through a situation that I cannot conquer. Just the thought that God knows I can endure what may seem difficult for me is such an amazing feeling.