Class Discussions

While in class the professor was asking everyone how they felt about going to the cemetery. At first I just thought that people were going to say that it was really weird and that they never want to do it again, but some people found this experience to be a very eye opening experience. I remember Aubrey saying that she felt some kind of closure on a previous situation, which is great! Then someone said that they were looking at the years on the tomb stones. Some people were old, while others were very young, and at that moment it hit me.

At the cemetery I was trying so hard not to have any kind of emotion towards anything. I almost started to cry when I saw the small caskets sticking out of the ground, but I didn't. I think that now I know why I didn't have any strong emotion about anything when I went to the cemetery. First off I did not know anyone in the grave yard, so I felt kind of rude just going there and walking around by someone else s dead body, but that wasn't the main reason. My mother died when I was very young and I never experienced that traumatic pain from her death. At times I would remember, but then I quickly forget. In my entire life I think that I've only cried 2 or 3 times about my mom. I started to think about how young she was and how young the people were in the cemetery, and it made me think about my life. I can die any day now because no one knows when the time nor day that He will come back. The thought of that made me realize that I didn't want to waste my life anymore. I want someone to remember me as a Christ follower, someone who helped them and cared for them when they need it. I want to forget about the things that I love and cherish and focus on others. I want to do missions, and touch the lives of other people.

Although at the beginning this assignment seemed pointless to me, it actually turned out to be one of my greatest experiences because it made me realize that I need to get my life on the right track.