Tuesday..

     Going outside to just relax is such a wonderful thing, I know for a fact that it relieves so much stress. It's like once you are outside, you start to think about things you normally wouldn't think about. I know that when I am stressed about something (which I was today) I will start to worry about how it will affect me, and how I feel about the situation, and what I am going to do. It's always about me, me ,me and I hate that. Something went wrong with my banking account and I think that my bank just stole 308. dollars from me, and I just got so angry. I couldn't even focus on writing this or even focus on anything else for that matter. It's like the whole world is falling apart when we turn a little issue into a huge situation.
     When I'm outside I see the bigger picture of life. There is much more out there than just me, I, and me in this world and I see that now that I have had time to think about how many people are struggling in this world to even eat. I am truly blessed to be coming to this school and to have a job, but we just take so much for granted! Americans are spoiled whether you want to believe it or not because something bad has to happen to us to feel the way that half the people in this world is feeling right now. When I was outside thinking about this I became so upset with myself because I noticed how wrapped up I can become in my own life. I mean yes 300 dollars is quite a bit to be missing at the moment, but that will eventually fade away when I go to a far more better place. I want to be able to look gaze my eyes upon Heavenly matters instead of earthly matters. I'm not saying that I want to be perfect, but we have to start doing better.
     I could not believe how calm I was after going outside. I didn't even settle the matter with the bank yet, and I will worry about it later. I still cant get over the fact that nature has caused me to think about all of these things and it helped me to notice things about myself that i do not like at all. there is just something about nature. It is so calming, so nurturing and comforting.  Thank you God.